I have two grown daughters. I was very involved with the children at church when they were small. When we moved to Ohio, I wanted to join a big church where I wouldn’t have to be so involved. Hah! It worked the first two years. Then I got into the junior high confirmation program and then followed my kids into the teen program. It was an accident. I didn’t mean to. They didn’t have enough leaders. I knew adults who would be better youth leaders than I. But they were too busy, so I did. I always thought someone more qualified would come along. So many people could have done this better than I. I knew I was not the best at this. But no one else did it and so that did make me good enough to do His work. It definitely wasn’t MY PLAN, but it apparently was God’s plan! “It is God who saved us and chose us for His holy work, not because we deserved it, but because that was His plan” (2Timothy 1:9).
When my kids were in high school I thought I was done. Then I was drafted into going to going on a youth trip. Okay, I was wrong. I went to organize, to help and to chaperone, but I got far more out of it than I put in. I went as a chaperone and came back as a stronger follower in the faith- as one with Him. That was it. I was truly hooked. Every time I work with Him or do work for Him, I get more out of it than those I should be helping! It never fails.
Now I look back- I’ve been to three youth conventions, and on at least 7 youth mission trips, and have 12 years of Wednesday night youth group behind me. I mean, I’m not a people person, I have a poor sense of humor and I’m not really fun. But He calls me to continue again and again to do his work with the youth. He is always there, leading ME. Here’s an example- this past summer on a mission trip- the last night we adults gave personal blessings to and for our youth. I had NO IDEA what I would say- I mean, I was the leader, so I had to do it. Not to worry. God simply put words in my mouth. He really did. I’m a lousy speaker, but He guided me and spoke through me. It turned out well, since I didn’t know what I was doing, so He obviously was present. God has been with me, that’s for sure, because I really am not good at this myself. I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time, but he leads me. I have grown in my faith and gained in patience and understanding from this experience. Seriously, I have no idea what I’m doing, so God is definitely at work! His work, my hands- that is always apparent! If He can do this for me, I know He can do it for you. All we must do is listen- He’ll make sure we know! “We are like jars of clay in which the treasure of the gospel is stored. The real power comes from God and not from us” (2 Corinthians 4:7). So true!
You are so incredible! You know the very depths of my soul- what my gifts are and the many ways I am lacking. I thank you for blessing me so richly as you work on me- and through me for your glory. I ask that you continue- even when I am not open, welcoming and thrilled about what you want me to do. I am nothing without you. Thank you for being a true Father and God for me.